Promises

I am feeling extremely grateful today. Emotionally the last couple of weeks has been really tough.  I mean it wasn't uncommon for me to have a complete meltdown, sobbing uncontrollably on my bed or in public for absolutely no reason whatsoever.  Pre-menstrual?  Pre-menopausal?  Who the hell knows!  But my poor family had to endure it and boy were they troopers!!  I am feeling a little better today.  Yesterday was the  first in many that I didn't have a meltdown...not even one tear.  Perhaps part of it is that I was able to make a financial amends which took a HUGE weight off of my shoulders!  This got me thinking of the 12 Promises of AA and how I am still sooooooo fearful of not being able to pay my bills and put food on the table, etc, etc. However, in reading them again this morning I did realize that most of them have definitely come true in my life today.  I am much calmer than I used to be...still a worrier but getting better every day.

The 12 Promises of Alcoholics Anonymous

If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through.

(1) We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness.

(2) We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.

(3) We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace.

(4) No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others.

(5) That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear.

(6) We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows.

(7) Self-seeking will slip away.

(8) Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change.

(9) Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us.

(10) We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us.

(11) We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.

(12) Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us—sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.